Been sitting here healing, relaxing and watching videos while recovering from exhaustion and a series of surgeries over three months time.

Just to clarify and clear up any confusions, as I have nothing to hide. It was oral surgeries, as I mentioned before my teeth were crumbling. Apparently from violent vomiting years ago during migraines, Vasculitis and Sjogrens disease, or at least that is what has been assumed to be the culprits. Those restoring surgeries cause a lot of vibrations. For people with autoimmune diseases, you probably know vibrations don’t mix well and can cause flares and extra issues. For me, I took the risk as not having teeth can lead to a whole extra plethora of problems, including extra headaches, I do not need. Those that have wished me well and healing thank you. You’re a blessing.

To those that saw me as some kind of target, I don’t know if you noticed my posts about taking breaks or commenting on videos as me being an easy target or something. I hope you find the healing you need to become a better person. You should really find another hobby than harassing, stalking people. Already posted about it being a crime in a community post on YouTube. But they know who they are, the interactions have been documented. All because I commented on another YouTuber’s video that seemed to be a relevant topic that could affect anyone on bot and changes to YouTube platform. These people took it upon themselves to tag me personally along with a long list of that YouTuber’s followers. in quite a few posts from different accounts, whether same person or gang stalking I cant be sure. Either way a crime. Giving you a chance to change without reporting you right off the bat.

Been pondering a lot while sitting back resting, technically still am as yesterday was my last surgery. However, I came across so many disturbing informational videos recently from different communities that I felt I should sit down and write something about all this and sum things up that has been happening besides the immature bot/ gang stalker whatever it is thing mentioned above. (And yes, sorry honey, you’re behaving in an immature way by going after people and calling them names and the rest you know what you did.) In case you missed it, I made you a playlist titled “Ah. Hello there. For the young trolls and hurt ones.”

Making everything red flags and buzz words or phrases is nonsense. Unless you can clarify and articulate exactly how it is being used in a bad light and manipulation, you are perpetuating the problem of ill information being presented to an audience that some how you assume knows exactly what you are talking about in context without giving full context. There is plenty of examples to give, but the one that got me up to write about it was making the words “healing” and “journey” red flags.

Again, posted on this in my community posts on YouTube and pinned a followup comment in it after briefly looking into it. So go look at that if you want a bit of context where I am coming from.

Making the words; heal, healing or anything the like and the path or journey of doing so as a red flag especially as a mental health professional is unethical and irresponsible. (Yes it was someone that said they were a psychologist that said this.) I won’t tag their name or say who as I am not out to get anyone. I just want to express how it is literally a mental health professionals job to HEAL someone. Demonizing positivity is atrocious. Instead, why not articulate how it is being misused and that the words themselves are not inherently bad or a red flag.

People are all red flag happy and seeking evils, you’re going to see it in everything. HENCE the be positive. Yes people abuse this, point out the abuse of it, not the words that are not inherently bad. Otherwise you are giving people the wrong impression and turning away from what is genuinely to help them not hurt them. I for one would like to see people focus less on the red flags as people like to say, which why not just say hey this isn’t a good sign. We in some kind of red light green light game I didn’t agree to play?

Another thing, this aversion to honesty and truth. Being honest is NOT rude. Just because it bruised your ego doesn’t make honest truthful people toxic or rude. Give clear examples otherwise you’re just afraid of facing the fact you are probably in the wrong about something and didn’t like being exposed. If you can’t be honest, what you want everyone to run around kiss your rear and lie to you al the time? That sounds really toxic and delusional to me. Yes if someone tells you something rude and says “ I’m just being honest” and it was something you genuinely can not change about yourself or is completely false. Well then they aren’t being honest they are abusing the word to manipulate the receiver. Does that make being honest toxic? NO. How it is used matters. Telling someone hey, that shirt does not look good on you. While might sting, are they trying to let you know you look better in a different color or the tailoring isn’t flattering? What was their tone? Was it in front of a bunch of people or was it an attempt to be discrete when it happened? See how context matters?

Time and time again I keep seeing people attempt to simplify complex topics by cutting out the actual important parts. You have a responsibility especially if educated properly in a topic to provide, clear, direct to the point information and not confuse people more than they already are.

Now that I been typing out this rant, I am realizing this is why I keep stepping forward to say something. Its summary in a nut shell on why I felt a need to right the begin to speak book. I don’t know if its intentional to keep people perpetually sick and confused. I for one have had enough of it.

You are not a bad person if you want people to heal. You are not a bad person if you are honest. You are not a bad person if you stop talking to someone or put boundaries in place for yourself. You are not a bad person for being positive, kind or compassionate. People demonizing literal virtues taught in faith tells me there is some reverse psychology going on that I am not going to sit by and let happen.

I do not know if its intentional, some kind of psychological warfare, a BS Psyop or just pure ignorance. All I do know is I don’t like seeing things that can potentially harm innocent people and make them fearful or confused. Whatever game this is, I am happy to participate in ending it. Do not care about your ego or feelings if I see a pattern of harmful information intentional or not. I’d very much like to be proven wrong, and its accidental unaware of the content people are actually putting out there and how it is perpetuating a toxic level of manipulation to people who are trusting and take it word for word without question. Not okay. Quite honestly never even heard of the red flag thing until two years ago and I hope that trend just kind of fades since its basically a form of shaming and attempts to point out people doing wrong instead of fixing the problem. I’d rather see things get better than make it worse.

But isn’t that what you are doing by pointing out what people are doing wrong? You probably asking yourself reading this. Yes, I have a habit of pointing out what I see, however hopefully I have articulated enough for you to look into these issues and be more aware of a manipulation vs genuine helpful despite using certain words and phrases like in this post.

And if you are reading this and one of those stalk bot people, just because someone follow and comments a personas channel doesn’t mean they know the content creator personally or share the same views as them. You might want to rethink your life choices. If words hurt you so much, ask yourself why? And really, why does it matter to you so much who I follow or not? There is something seriously wrong with that picture. Please, get help.

On a positive note to leave you all on, I hope this encourages you to do your own research, question the things being said even if the person is claiming to be an educated professional. They are in fact just people and no one knows everything. I just happen to see things between lines and patterns and question everything naturally. In a world that wants to label everything as an illness. Lets be rebels and get healthy.

Like Lemon balm calms and can soothe irritations with a citrus earthy scent,

Lets chill out and not make everything a red flag contradiction.

Focus on helping rather than scatter and dilute the meaning of everything.